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Beautiful Adieu
[byoo·tuh·fl uh·dyoo]
Just like how beginnings and ends are never without the other, a beautiful goodbye will always pave the way for a graceful hello once more. Beautiful Adieu is a reminder to acknowledge the transitoriness of each moment and to release our grasp on what is bound to change. Embracing the cyclical nature of life is what moves us into the present moment – a timelessness of Infinite Grace where our souls thrive. It is the embodiment and knowing that while suffering is inevitable, pain is something we can choose to let go of. Join me in living an intentional life filled with beauty and harmony.
if you’re new here, hello.
My name is AMANDA.
I can tell you that I have a Gemini sun, with Cancer rising and Sagittarius moon in my natal chart; that I’m a 2/4 emotional projector, an enneagram type 1, an INFP (my MBTI changes every other year), and every other label you can think of: a daughter, sister, coach, creative, and so on…
Well yes, I am all those, and yet I am not.
nyc, 2016
baby manda in new zealand, 2016
Some of you may know me from the good ol’ days when I used to be an active content creator on Instagram. I was also a fashion portrait photographer for 15 years, and always shared my travels and captures on my blog and Instagram. I really loved that creative life, until I got burnt out.
That was in the last month of 2016, and everything changed after that.
An intimate peek into my hermit life:
In the following year, my mom suddenly passed away from a brain aneurysm, with no prior medical history. I also got married to my fiancé immediately after (due to some religious traditions that we had to follow after my mom’s death), and moved into a new place 3 months later. Everything was a whirlwind and life was moving too quickly. Thankfully, this was also the year that fate brought me to my darling cat, Effie, when I was traveling in Thailand. I spent the next five years taking a backseat from work, aimlessly drifting along in life and not knowing what my purpose or direction was.
While it wasn’t a small event to me, my mom’s death created a butterfly effect that rippled through my reality and eventually led to my divorce and first spiritual awakening in 2021. This was also the time of my Saturn Return, and *everything* was going according to Divine plan.
A year and a half later of diving deep into my inner work, I co-founded wander + bloom with a friend, where we curate and create psycho-spiritual courses, events and retreats for mental, emotional, and spiritual growth.
Along the way, I learned how to telepathically speak to animals (especially my cat), and got certified as a Reiki Master through the Japanese Reiki energetic system. I also became an accredited coach and NLP Master Practitioner after I found out how much I enjoy guiding people to their own growth and breakthroughs.
out of the spiritual closet, 2023
Even though I loved who I’d become and how I stewarded my life, I hid in the spiritual and self-growth closet for 3 years. I refused to show this new version of myself, afraid that I would be judged for how different I’ve become… precisely because I was unconsciously judging the old version of me as not good enough.
In my recent second spiritual awakening, I’ve come to embrace vulnerability as a way to connect with myself and others on a deeper level. So here I am, giving you a glimpse into my heart and soul in a world that encourages a perfectly curated “about me” section.
Even as a multi-potentialite who has run multiple side businesses and find it easy to pick up new things, I don’t really know where I’m ultimately headed. I’m finding out that I don’t exactly fit into any one box as I continue to peel back the layers to find my authenticity again. One thing I’m certain of, is that my the events in my life happened in order for me to grow and serve.
This website and blog is an ongoing discovery of who I am, and what I’m here to do in this life. I’m learning to share my voice and gifts as I deepen my personal journey, and maybe some of that will touch and inspire you in some way, at the right time and space. For now, I’m keeping it open and allowing life to unfold as I do my part.
Thank you for joining me on this soulful journey, as we walk each other home into our hearts once again.