about

Beautiful Adieu


if you’re new here, hello.

My name is AMANDA.

I can tell you that I have a Gemini sun, with Cancer rising and Sagittarius moon in my natal chart; that I’m a 2/4 emotional projector, an enneagram type 1, an INFP (my MBTI changes every other year), and every other label you can think of: a daughter, sister, coach, creative, and so on…

Well yes, I am all those, and yet I am not.

nyc, 2016
baby manda in new zealand, 2016

Some of you may know me from the good ol’ days when I used to be an active content creator on Instagram. I was also a fashion portrait photographer for 15 years, and always shared my travels and captures on my blog and Instagram. I really loved that creative life, until I got burnt out.

That was in the last month of 2016, and everything changed after that.

An intimate peek into my hermit life:

When my mom suddenly passed away from a brain aneurysm the following year, I was deeply thrown off course. I got married, took a backseat from work and lived an aimless and soulless life. I was drinking and shopping every other day as a way to cope with the emptiness within. On the outside, everyone thought I had it all together, but on the inside, parts of who I was were slowly being overlaid with layers upon layers of who I wasn’t, to cover up the pain I was going through.

This went on for the next 3 years until one day, I decided that enough was enough. I was tired of the way I was blowing up over the smallest things and creating friction in my relationships. Frankly, so was everyone else. I sought help from therapy, and other forms of metaphysical guidance. I followed one breadcrumb after another as I stumbled into my Saturn Return and first spiritual awakening.

Before then, I thought I was doomed to be person that I was

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A year and a half later of diving deep into my inner work, I co-founded wander + bloom with a friend, where we curate and create psycho-spiritual courses, events and retreats for mental, emotional, and spiritual growth.

Along the way, I learned how to telepathically speak to animals (especially my cat), and got certified as a Reiki Master through the Japanese Reiki energetic system. I also became an accredited coach and NLP Master Practitioner after I found out how much I enjoy guiding people to their own growth and breakthroughs.

out of the spiritual closet, 2023

Even though I loved who I’d become and how I stewarded my life, I hid in the spiritual and self-growth closet for 3 years. I refused to show this new version of myself, afraid that I would be judged for how different I’ve become… precisely because I was unconsciously judging the old version of me as not good enough.

In my recent second spiritual awakening, I’ve come to embrace vulnerability as a way to connect with myself and others on a deeper level. So here I am, giving you a glimpse into my heart and soul in a world that encourages a perfectly curated “about me” section.

Even as a multi-potentialite who has run multiple side businesses and find it easy to pick up new things, I don’t really know where I’m ultimately headed. I’m finding out that I don’t exactly fit into any one box as I continue to peel back the layers to find my authenticity again. One thing I’m certain of, is that my the events in my life happened in order for me to grow and serve.

This website and blog is an ongoing discovery of who I am, and what I’m here to do in this life. I’m learning to share my voice and gifts as I deepen my personal journey, and maybe some of that will touch and inspire you in some way, at the right time and space. For now, I’m keeping it open and allowing life to unfold as I do my part.

Thank you for joining me on this soulful journey, as we walk each other home into our hearts once again.

All my love,

Amanda

my personal vision:

To live a life of BEAUTY and HARMONY

in this season of life

In the following year, my mom suddenly passed away from a brain aneurysm, with no prior medical history. I also got married to my fiancé immediately after (due to some religious traditions that we had to follow after my mom’s death), and moved into a new place 3 months later. Everything was a whirlwind and life was moving too quickly. Thankfully, this was also the year that fate brought me to my darling cat, Effie, when I was traveling in Thailand. I spent the next five years taking a backseat from work, aimlessly drifting along in life and not knowing what my purpose or direction was.

While it wasn’t a small event to me, my mom’s death created a butterfly effect that rippled through my reality and eventually led to my divorce and first spiritual awakening in 2021. This was also the time of my Saturn Return, and *everything* was going according to Divine plan.

A year and a half later of diving deep into my inner work, I co-founded wander + bloom with a friend, where we curate and create psycho-spiritual courses, events and retreats for mental, emotional, and spiritual growth.

Along the way, I learned how to telepathically speak to animals (especially my cat), and got certified as a Reiki Master through the Japanese Reiki energetic system. I also became an accredited coach and NLP Master Practitioner after I found out how much I enjoy guiding people to their own growth and breakthroughs.

Even though I loved who I’d become and how I stewarded my life, I hid in the spiritual and self-growth closet for 3 years. I refused to show this new version of myself, afraid that I would be judged for how different I’ve become… precisely because I was unconsciously judging the old version of me as not good enough.

In my recent second spiritual awakening, I’ve come to embrace vulnerability as a way to connect with myself and others on a deeper level. So here I am, giving you a glimpse into my heart and soul in a world that encourages a perfectly curated “about me” section.

Even as a multi-potentialite who has run multiple side businesses and find it easy to pick up new things, I don’t really know where I’m ultimately headed. I’m finding out that I don’t exactly fit into any one box as I continue to peel back the layers to find my authenticity again. One thing I’m certain of, is that my the events in my life happened in order for me to grow and serve.

This website and blog is an ongoing discovery of who I am, and what I’m here to do in this life. I’m learning to share my voice and gifts as I deepen my personal journey, and maybe some of that will touch and inspire you in some way, at the right time and space. For now, I’m keeping it open and allowing life to unfold as I do my part.

Thank you for joining me on this soulful journey, as we walk each other home into our hearts once again.